Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

Your face.

To elaborate, the top left is obviously a concrete truck. The center right with all the pipes is a pump truck that has an arm that can reach and pump over houses, power lines, on top of buildings, etc. running the hose on this one will make you feel like you've been hit by a truck and dragged a few blocks, it hurts. It can also throw you if air gets in the line, breaking bones.

The little one is different, It's a smaller pump with smaller hoses, these hoses are steel belted and weigh...a lot. If air gets in the line, the end may flop. Think like when you turn on a water hose with a high pressure sprayer and it flies around, same thing but this hose can kill you. The big one can do this too, but it's less common because the hoses from the big one aren't usually run across the ground, just stay away when priming and purging.

But it's the truth! Google simply doesn't offer the same level of porn searching power anymore!

Porn searching? You mean you don't already know where all the porn is?

I call it the Fountain of Youth. /snicker

Sometimes you gotta use names to find something you're interested in...

ever have a day where you wish you could close your eyes and just fade away?

I can help

get to work then.





i suppose i can understand. i hate the burden the people i care about put on me. so many people i know ask so much of me, cause i'm such a giving person. they always says they'd do it for me, yet i've never asked.


i have a few people i can vent to if i need to, even if i have to hit up people on skype and just scream at my keyboard, i know they are there for me. i just. rawr.


stress is getting to me this evening.

pardon the emo.

yup. it's not like other people ask for the things i do either, but you should do things for how those things will make you feel ultimately, anyway.

i usually just get over-apathetic when i think about things like that too deeply anyway and that's when i start wanting to just do tons of dissociatives to completely mentally remove myself from everything... but that's not really good either.

lesser of two evils or something? idk

anyway idk wtf i'm on about. i'm not particularly in a bad mood i just feel like typing apparently.

venting is an essential part of stress relief. i suppose i just didn't feel like burdening the person or people i normally would.

sometimes i have to message one chick on skype, and make her tell me everything will be ok.

i think i need a new game to play.


got a new laptop, but i've mostly just played LoL and modded GTA IV. i tried this whole big list of skyrim mods for this realism enb, but it keeps breaking skyrim. too tiring to go through and check each mod by itself. i've done everything in the game already.

i want gta v pc version to hit.

ya i m mesmerized here lol

i need to make my mule a sweet melee set for this i think! will be much more fun

So in the news lately, they've been talking about Colony Collapse Disorder where essentially bees have been simply vanishing. Due to many food bearing plants relying on cross pollination, they claim that if all the bees would die out, we could kiss 1/3rd of our world's food supply goodbye. I suspect it might be more than that, but that was the approximate number.

So I just watched a documentary about these disappearing bees, and in it they had a quote from Albert Einstein: “If the bee disappeared off the surface of the globe, then man would have only four years of life left. No more bees, no more pollination, no more plants, no more animals, no more man.”

As I watched this film however, they began talking about Africanized bees that were found to be more stubborn than the regular honeybee. One expert stated that Africanized bees would be able to achieve what regular honeybees couldn't, and that these bees would be able to live longer than man.

That shone a lightbulb in my head that reminded me of the Romantic literature I studied in college regarding nature, and it got me thinking about the whole global warming thing. It also reminded me of that quote about global warming from George Carlin stating that the earth's going to be just fine. Nature will find a way, and nature has provided a way through these Africanized bees, just like it will find a way to overcome global warming.

I don't mean this optimistically, mind you. There's a reason we call them "killer bees". It's nature's way of lashing back at humans. We try to control everything, and these Africanized bees are simply telling us that we're not as all-important as we think we are. It's the same with global warming. It might kill us off, but the earth will be just fine. All this time we thought we could outsmart nature - it turns out she's just been playing us for suckers.

Let it out, Hevs. We all need to unburden ourselves from time to time. That's what humankind is meant for. All this time we thought we were created for competition, but really we're pack animals. As far as we can tell, we've always been pack animals. We couldn't help but create society; it's in every facet of the human genome.

What does this mean for you? It means we're meant to help each other out when we get shoved in the dirt from time to time. Don't feel bad for venting what's on your mind - it's one of the intrinsic things that makes us all human.

Oh yeah, nature will survive. The question is: will we?

Also think about how awesome it is that you are able to not only think about why you feel a certain way, but that you're able to verbalize this to others as well...

As lame as that sounds, it's pretty cool, regardless of whether anyone listens to you or gives a ***... Just the act of speaking (or typing or sign-language or writing or drawing etcetc) allows you to better comprehend what you're feeling and the origin of those feelings and how you can go about altering things so that you no longer feel that way if it's undesirable (or continue to feel that way if it does happen to be desirable).

matter of disagreement, I *** hate tabs.

I also stopped using firefox after the version 29 update where it moved tabs on top again and the disable in the settings didn't turn it off...

If I wanted tabs on top,I'd use lolchrome.