Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

yea tried playing with a controller... pissed me off lol

also might save for that Haakona Advanced Warbird

its 2,500z

Every damn time you guys say STO I can't help but think of that mission in Ace Combat 5: The Unsung War where I have to defend the STO driver from enemy tanks, planes, and cruise missles until it launches into space.

I love the KB/Mouse controls :| took me a few minutes to get used to them but it's not THAT bad.

I was in an awesome, albeit complicated, relationship with this gorgeous girl.
Things got a bit rocky recently and (something I have never done in my life) cheated on her with an equally gorgeous girl.
I told girl #1 (my actual girlfriend until recently) about the cheating when I started to feel like I'd made a mistake. She (understandably) got up and left, but after a bit of talking, wasn't really sure she wanted things to end. But in the meantime, I was still spending time with girl #2, because who wants to be lonely, right?

So of course, girl #1 is unsure she can trust me when I'm still dealing with girl #2. But I really want to work things out with girl #1 because she's the only girl who's ever completely understood me.

I'm horrible with words in person, and I can't bear to see her upset, so I wrote everything out in an elaborate, carefully worded message to girl #2. Then I copied it and sent it to girl #1 so she'd know I did exactly what I told her I'd do.

Girl #1 hasn't said anything to me since I talked with her earlier in the day, and when I asked at the time, she said she wasn't sure she loved me anymore.

Girl #2 hasn't attempted to talk to me, but she sent the message to a mutual friend and is apparently taking it really bad.

Tl;dr... I had a shot with either of two beautiful girls, and managed to most likely ruin it with both of them.

Ace Combat 5 will always be my favorite of the series.

been tempted to pick up the 3DS one lol

There's a 3DS version? Please link me! Also i am up for other suggestions of 3DS games that i can order from amazon!

Interesting way to look at it, Jos. But it's not that my feelings for her ever changed. My ability to deal with the complications of our relationship when something simpler was offered to me is what actually changed.

*hands Kali some food.*

Where is the best spot on the car for my Umbrella Corp decal?
Mid trunk? Gas tank cover?

Being honest in a relationship to me is all you really have. You should have told her before you were even tempted that you were unsure about the relationship and gone from there.

Of course hindsight is 20/20, and though I don't condone the action, it is what it is.

To some degree, I did. Before it happened, I had tried sitting her down and telling her I couldn't handle the complications any longer. She walked out on me that night, too. It wasn't until the next day that she agreed as long as I'd give her more time. But at that point, the relationship had already been damaged by her leaving.

I don't either. I know what I did wasn't right. More than that, I don't know why I, of all people, would let it go that far.

Oddly, I can kinda understand. I'm horrible with words, and I've kinda cheated once, I admitted to it and she forgave me, then after we broke up... THEY started dating.

The only thing I can really say is decide where you want to be. From your post, I think you already have. Someone is gonna feel used and they are going to look at you harshly, and bridges may be burned. There's the chance you may end up alone, and it's due to a mistake, but mistakes are best when learned from. I'm not cheating again, the orgasm isn't worth the guilt felt afterwards. There are alot of people in the world, alot of women, alot of gorgeous women. Take time, learn and recover from this if nothing else.

I wish you luck in which ever route you choose, and hope none of this post comes off as "kicking a man when he's down."

Since you've already told us so much, Dro. Mind if I ask what was so complicated about the relationship before this?

Edit, PMs work too!

Sorry, I don't know if I really should've posted all that.

That seemed really constructive and polite, so don't be so self-conscious. Hell, mine was probably more abrasive. Lately I've found myself being rather blunt.

I feel like I MUST be reading this wrong.

Not at all... Everything you said has gone through my head, too. It's way too early to know if I made the right decision as far as who to let go. Still, the whole thing has left me feeling a bit down and empty for the time being.

Especially when I know there's at least one person out there upset and most likely crying because of me. (I've always been the real-life "white knight" type... I hate seeing people sad and try to keep them all from being hurt. But in this case, I managed to hurt everyone involved.)

You read it right, both were bisexual. It didn't bother me too much as the GF became a *** about everything after we broke up. Our breaking up was unrelated to the cheating.

<3

grilled up a chicken breast, finished it with some mango salsa over it. Also made some black beans with tomatoes, corn, garlic, onion, cumin, salt, black pepper, and a large pinch my taco seasoning that I make myself,

You're going to "Wtf?!" at this until I explain, but...

She's been cheating on her own boyfriend the entire time we've been together. The only reason I've really "dealt" with it is because she said she stopped having sex with him after we got together, because the idea of sleeping with more than one person at a time was gross. I accepted it as truth, because she could have easily told me from the start, "I'm going to keep sleeping with him, too, or he'll figure something is up" and I'd have had to be okay with it or let her go back then.

Our real problem was that she didn't want to live here. She doesn't like my neighborhood. She doesn't want to live in town (even though she already does). And, probably the most considerate part of it, she said she didn't want to end up using me just for a free place to live.

And, PMs?! I have very little shame about myself or my personal life. There are very few things I would discuss in a PM that I wouldn't openly discuss here.

gif is broken :c no fair

Yeah, that's complicated. as for PMs, I was just laying out the fact that I'd done the same, I'm not proud of it, but I don't lie about it. I'll stop, though, just in case it's disturbing people.

:o Your avatar? If so, it's working for me.

Dro, I have a lot of things to say about that. But I won't say it all. Good luck. One *** up situation you've got yourself in. If you two actually love eachother, ditch the other two making ***complicated and carry on. As far as her moving, if you two love eachother you'll work it out. Be it waiting for her to change her mind of whatever else. No excuse for that cheating ***.

Apparently my keyboard doesn't want me to say much at all! Typoooos.

Feel free to speak your mind! Or PM me if you think people will take it the wrong way. I'm open to hearing all sorts of points of view on the matter.

Most people say I should have dropped her after she refused to leave the guy. I just tried to be more understanding about it for her.

I don't have all the details but there are two quotes I like that apply to a lot of dating situations:

“if you love two people at the same time, choose the second. Because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.”

― Johnny Depp

and

“Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option.”

― Maya Angelou